Sleep well. (by C-Section Comics)
- Tagged
- add in loss and heartbreak over what tiny me felt she had to do i am so incurably sad over nine yr old me
- and basically nine year old me just cut off everything from my childhood that was about girls in any sense
- and i can't have any memory where i was fond of a girl and definitely have to berate myself during my teen years for the images in my head
- and it hurts my heart knowing I've been strong all my life
- and look i had a boyfriend whi kissed me on the cheek anf i hated it but that's got to be locked away too now
- and she'd never thougbt that before
- because nine year old me thought my interactions with girls and my emotions about girls were wrong
- caitlin gets deep
- deleting access to memories of spending time with girls
- for basically my entire life
- it had been normal to think of girls as pretty and it was normal to kiss them and to spend as much time as humanly possible with them
- just to be on the safe side
- lol
- that trying to be strong and in control and doing what's been best for me as i see it has been a thing
- that trying to be strong was no a result of the bullshit of sixth form etc
- That's what it boils down to
- That's why i thought all my past friendships were shite
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