do you guys wanna hear one of the saddest spirk headcanons i have
no but proceed anyway
so on away missions, kirk would often bring over flowers hes picked or little things he thought interesting enough to show to spock. sometimes he’d have spock hold onto his little souveniers (and promptly forget about them). spock would not forget, however. he had no use for them (often times the flowers were duplicates from samples he’d already collected and examined,) but they were too important to simply throw away because jim seemed fond of them and he asked him to hold them.
he’d press the flowers and oddly-shaped leaves, etc. in a book and note the star-date they were collected, the name of the planet, the coordinates, and the reason jim gave each sample to him (e.g., “smelled pretty” or “shaped like fran drescher”) underneath each one, cataloguing all of jim’s “treasures” in his own scientific way.
strangely, spock found himself pleased to add a new page, and stranger still, he found himself dreading the end of the book. he was very fond of it, and though he would never admit it, perhaps over the years it was the most precious thing he owned.
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when spock learned of kirk’s decision to accept the promotion to admiral, he was deeply hurt to know they would likely never stand on the bridge of a starship together again.
spock doesn’t tell kirk of his decision to leave starfleet and return to initiate kolinahr on vulcan. instead, he leaves the book at the door of his apartment just before leaving for his shuttle. the treasures do belong to him, after all.
when kirk finds it and realizes what it is and what it means, it breaks him, and when he reads the inscription on the inside of the front cover: “The following samples have no scientific relevance or importance.” he literally can’t hold back the sobs. they have no scientific importance and yet he obviously kept them preserved so carefully, so lovingly. so very spock.
kirk realizes, after sobbing for hours with the book on his lap like if he took another look inside it would burn him, that he loves him. and that he’s gone.
Hm. I just noticed. Spock really doesn’t have any reason to go help Kirk stand up right then. Kirk doesn’t look particularly inclined to stand up right at that moment. And, I mean, yeah, he’s older, but he can probably stand up by himself anyway. But still, Spock goes out of his way to go help Kirk stand up, even though Kirk didn’t seem to care about standing up that much at that moment.
You know why?
Cos Vulcans kiss with their haaaaaaaands.
Just watch those last two gifs over and over. Kirk’s face is a fucking gem. His slight hesitation before accepting, glaring momentarily at Spock’s hand, kidding himself that he could be huffy and stroppy and not accept his husband’s sentimental Vulcan-kiss olive branch, before very, very quickly softening . Look at the way his expression just melllltttsss across those last two gifs. The steely annoyed scowl, to the reluctantly frustrated acceptance, to exasperated and amused affection, before finally settling on something that seems to say “For fucks sake you are so annoying I love you so much you adorable motherfucker”.
Old Married Spirk, baby. Does it get any cuter? The answer is no. It does not. It’s the cutest. I love it aand I love them.
I wanna see a line graph of how cranky and needlessly mean Spock is to the crew in relation Jim’s physical distance from him, cause there’s an unarguable correlation
a scientific study by Lt. Sulu
I see “vanished into spacetime, possibly dead” is off the chart.
i’m bored while doing my latin homework i am this close to translating the opening monologue to star trek into classical latin someone stop me quick
caelum. finito terminalis. is cursus est de commissi navistella. sui legatio quintus-annus – munduses ignotus novus exploro. lux nova et cultus novus sequor. cedo audacius quatenus homonis aput iit.
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